~stressed..... very very stressed~

okie, this place has become more like a weekly entry rather than a daily entry of my own thoughts and feeling already....

I am stressed, totally stressed...

this week had a midterm and an assignment deadline..... actually din seems to be a lot, cos last time there have been times whereby one week we have to hand in three-five lab reports, plus endless assignments and project presentation. but this is the first time i feel so so so stressed. maybe its because of the final year presentation that is coming in less then two weeks time. have to present in less than two weeks! and to think that we have not even come out with our questionaires eariler this week! I am totally stressed! so stressed that on tue night, i was still wide awake at 5am! very afraid that I was not able to meet the deadline for my assignment, afraid that I could not finish studying for my soc psy midterm, afraid that there is not enough time to collect questionaire data, afraid that we do not have time to interview the professor that we want to interview. so many things went across my mind that night that just cause me to be sleepless that night.......

finally on wed, was not able to take it and i just broke down in the morning after my lesson. good thing i was in hall......... then no one see me cry....... but thanks to michelle who was willing to listen to me and prayed for me through the phone, was much better after that, then thanks to fai fai who listened to me while i was trying to calm myself down..... and thanks to luhao who really encourage me to hang on and who still think so highly of me after all these years....... luhao, i m not that strong k.......... i m just another girl who cry alot...... just that i dun cry in front of you all la....... I am not a strong person......... actually can break down quite easily one lor..... but i guess this is the first time i m feeling so tense up.............

mom prayed for me that night after rebuking me for being so worrysome.......... sometime humans are just so vunlerable, we know that "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."(Phil 4:6-7), however a lot of time we will still be worried about things even after we pray.........

this is a lesson to be learnt.......... that is to be really be anxious for nothing.......

finally for all the things that i have been worried about...... managed to finish the assignment, finish the midterm (but flung it), manage to have the interview with the Prof.(the lesson before my midterm lor)....... manage to came up with the questionaires yesterday night (at 4am).........